It’s been a long time. I’ve been interested in hypnosis for a long long time. I’ve blogged a couple of times about some mp3’s that I’ve used. Some have been good, some haven’t. It’s kind of difficult for me with regard to recordings. I am a great candidate for hypnosis when you look at the guidelines. I get lost in movies or shows, I can concentrate, I zone out on the highway. All those things that good subjects are supposed to do. However, there are a couple downfalls. I can’t let go, and I am constantly monitoring myself to see if “it’s happening”. The thought of giving up and going into trance, letting go.. it’s what I want, and I want it so much, that I’m watching myself while trying to trance to see it happen. The other problem is interruptions. I never have enough time to get through a session before the phone rings, time to go, email arrives, messages, kids, dog, etc. etc. etc.
The best possible solution would be to be hypnotised in person. However, the problem with that is finding some, trusting someone, and/or having to pay someone. I don’t really have any access to any of these things at the moment, with life being the way it is. With that, they would be able to work with the type of subject that I am. If I had a friend who was into hypno, I would try it, see how things panned out..
But here we are.. mp3’s and websites. So lately (past month and a half or so) I’ve been working with this one mp3, trying to listen once a day, trying to get it to work. It’s erotic hypnosis with a little fdhypno in it, but hey, it’s fun. I continue to have the same issues. Until now. I found a meditation clip, with binaurals, that’s supposed to be used on its own. I have been playing it in the background while listening to this other erotic hypnosis mp3. I’ve used it twice so far, and I’ve gone further than I ever have. I think there are 2 parts to this. Since there is so much to focus on, I have to let go of monitoring myself. It’s kind of like a 7, +/- 2 thing. I’ve got the hypnosis track with voice, then I have the meditation track with the binaural – theta, wave sounds, some drum and a little bit of melody. Thinking about paying attention to all those things, mostly on the melody, has helped me go deeper during the session. Today was the first time that I felt like I was sinking when going deeper. It felt like you do when you get on an elevator and move one floor down. All the while I kept fighting the urge to monitor myself by continuing to focus on the melody. I also kept telling myself to let go, let go, let go. I was doing really well, until the phone rang.. twice. Then I was called on the nextel.. oye. Brought me right up and out.. Bummer!!! But I was so close, next time I’ll do the same thing and go deeper.. and deeper.. and deeper…